Kathmandu
It’s hard to describe the feeling when you arrive in a brand new country for the first time. The excitement of somewhere new, the anticipation of exploring the streets, tasting the local dishes, poking around in museums, shops and galleries.
We flew into Nepal this morning, our first ever visit, and we had all of these feels; marvelling as we passed the Himalayas and descended over the sprawling Lego like buildings of Kathmandu. We held hands as we landed, grinning at each other in delight.
Of course the short journey was not all sunshine and lollipops.
It’s likely a well kept secret that I used to be terrified of flying. Scared spitless. I would cling to the armrests every minute of every flight, refuse all food, and arrive at my destination with cramped muscles, starving and prepared to find a job in order to avoid the flight home.
Through sheer determination I have mostly overcome this fear, and I quite enjoy flying now. Except for taking off. I still hate taking off.
This morning in Delhi a heavy fog had settled over the city. Should be gone by the time we leave the hotel, I told myself.
The fog was not gone. If anything it was worse. Through our taxi ride, check in, clearing customs and security, I kept telling myself the fog would lift, or the flight would be cancelled. Either of these options would be fine with me.
The fog did not lift and the flight was not cancelled. Instead we were shuttled across an airport we couldn’t see to a plane we couldn’t see, up some stairs we couldn’t see and told to take our seats.
A litany of sabotaging thoughts and desperate responses ran through my head as we sat on the tarmac waiting to leave.
How can the pilots see the runway? How can they see anything? I can’t see anything. NOBODY CAN SEE ANYTHING!
Everything runs on computers and radars and technology these days, the pilots don’t need to see.
OF COURSE THE PILOTS NEED TO SEE! WHAT IF ANOTHER PLANE GETS IN THE WAY?! WHAT IF WE GET IN THE WAY?
There’s no way we’d be leaving if this wasn’t safe. This must be safe.
WHY DID AIR CANADA CANCEL THEIR FLIGHT? WHAT ARE THEY NOT TELLING US?
Everybody here knows what they’re doing. This is a huge airport.
THIS IS A FUCKING HUGE AIRPORT! NOBODY IS SAFE!
The flight attendants look calm, it must be fine.
THEY’RE PAID TO LOOK CALM. DO NOT TRUST THEM!
Don’t look out the window, don’t look out the window, don’t look out the window. I’ll just look out the window.
IT’S A COMPLETE WHITE OUT! IT’S WORSE THAN I THOUGHT!
Calm down Angela, you’re perfectly safe.
HOW CAN I BE CALM WHEN MY LAST INSTA PIC OF THE FOG WILL BE ON NATIONAL NINE NEWS?
Don made an attempt to distract me with some fun facts about Star Trek or Cheezels or who invented the mountains. I don’t know. I wasn’t having a bar of it, and he soon gave up. Instead I clung ferociously to his hand the whole time we were taxiing blindly across the tarmac, squeezing my eyes shut when the engines roared, the pilot having miraculously found the runway. God, my heart is pumping just writing this.
Without a word of a lie we broke through that cloud and into brilliant sunshine three seconds after taking off. Maybe two seconds.
It amazes me how bloody fast my whole body can pivot from abject terror to complete chill. My eyes opened and I loosened my death grip on Don’s hand.
‘I told you,’ he said, ‘it was just some low lying cloud.’
Even if I had heard him say this I wouldn’t have believed him.
We landed, we disembarked. Out visas were stamped and we collected our bags. Sanity and calm had well and truly returned. Sunshine and lollipops re-engaged, I was again filled with excitement and anticipation, chatting away to Don, the ground crew and anyone else who would listen.
‘It’s our first time in Nepal,’ I said to the man sorting out our taxi voucher.
‘Welcome to Nepal, Madame,’ he said.
‘Thanks,’ I said happily as he handed me the voucher.
‘You’re welcome. Could I perhaps interest you in an early morning joy flight over the Himalayas?’









